An extract for the book again.

Bitterness that adds the poison to every uttered word drips from their tongues as she enters. A grim cloud casts over their faces when she comes into view. The atmosphere is heavy with the evil it surrounds and each of the guest’s eyes is fixed on her. As she walks towards the centre of the room, they whisper amongst themselves. She notices this but does not hesitate; instead with each whisper her steps become more arrogant, adding a buoyant quality to her presence. She certainly is one to look at with her soft brown curls gently set in a bun at the back of her neck, with a few stray curls cast loosely on her bare shoulders. Her face is set in a smug yet pleasing smile that compliments the gentle blush on her cheeks. As she reaches the centre of the room her deep honey coloured eyes sparkle with a mischief so many have forgotten along with their childhood. As she stands she nervously fixes her hair, then her sapphire dress re-arranging its skirt. Her skin has a paler tone to it tonight, in contrast to the deep midnight blue of her dress and with the tender blush on her cheeks adds a polished superiority to her. No one speaks and they stand waiting from some movement, a sign, someone to say something, anything. Yet it is as if they have frozen, the champagne in their hands raised half way towards their mouths. The women eye her with envy like tigresses’, the protectiveness feeding off their own insecurities. Her lips part slowly and words inviting them to dance float in the air for a moment. Then the frozen image shatters and the party breathes life with the chattering, drinking and the guests dancing.

Coming Back to Earth...

Sometimes we are so focused on achieving a goal or a target that we forget to focus on the steps that we need to take in order to get us there. We see ourselves fantasising about being in the moment when we have achieved the goal, we imagine what it would be like, how we would feel and try imagining the experience of relief that comes with achievement. We focus our minds on the satisfaction and the success, detailing every aspect through rose tinted spectacles.

This is our mistake. We have forgotten that we have yet to take a step towards achieving our goal and have not yet even set upon the path. Or we have fantasised over every aspect of success and fallen behind on the path. A vital blunder made by many but realised by very few until all the fantasies that were so intricately decorated with feelings of satisfaction and pride crash to the ground and our worlds seem to seep into the darkness of failure.

We get a very rude awakening that we dreamt of our success so much that we jinxed it ourselves. Dreams are shattered and the painful reality is faced with teary eyes and angry words. We feel cheated and cannot fathom how this came to be, but in our hearts we only know too well. If we are to correct our ways and reduce the fantasising and focus then we shall not face such a reality. The fantasising needs to be replaced with centring our minds on taking the steps on the path to success. Keep in mind the end goal but don’t think you’ve achieved it just yet, for it shall still be out of reach until you have hiked the long and arduous path towards it.

Simply Charm

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Fatimah the Resplendent One (may Allah be pleased with her)

My sister came across an article on Fatima az-Zahraa (The Resplendent One) and posted it as a note on Facebook. The article was from:
http://southernmuslimah.wordpress.com/2007/08/27/great-women-in-islam-fatimah-daughter-of-the-prophet-muhammad/

Do have a read of it as it is a detailed and somewhat lengthy account of Fatima(ra)'s life and the many hardships she faced. It also tells of her kindness and behaviour towards others. She truly was an amazing woman and an example for us all not only in her actions but also her 'endearing personality'.

An Extract For A Possible Book

I've been patching together parts for a possible book that I'm writing. Below is a short extract I plan to bring into its story somewhere. At the moment I'm not sure how its going to be incorporated but it'll have a little more history and explanation accompanying it in the actual book. That's partly why it seems confusing and of no origin.


Also, feel free to tell me what you think of it. What do you like about it, what thoughts it provokes etc.

Here it is-->

I am mindlessly heading down a path a sane me would know not to head towards, but nothing is right anymore.My world has been enraged with a fever and my feet, heavy with exhaustion of wondering so aimlessly for so long, skip towards you when they see you. It is not you but just another hallucination. It does not recognise me and I look into it's eyes searching for your soul in the cold depths. I see a spark of your laughter of who you used to be, but then it dies and I am once again plunged into darkness.


Please comment x

Eating Whipped Cream Is Healthy

Prior warning: this theory is rather irrational and one of the many strange thoughts I come across and have on many occasions said aloud...unfortunately...lol

So the conversation I was having with a friend was about weight loss and calories....

Friend: how much calories is that?

Me: well its probably a lot (while scoffing my face with a cream filled pastry...oh don't forget the chocolate drizzled over the top....yes we were being shamelessly fantastic :P)

Me continuing and here's where the theory comes in: well if you think about it its got whipped cream in it....and if its whipped its got air in it...actually its mostly air....air doesn't have any calories right?.....this has got to be healthy then?? Otherwise we would all be breathing ourselves fat!! ROFL

Alouette, gentille alouette,
Alouette, je te plumerai...my favourite nursery rhyme :)

After a very long break I am back. Prior to the break I had a list of topics lined up that I wanted to post on, but due to some unfavourable circumstances I was unable to do so. Nonetheless, I hope to do that in due time.

Now for those of you who are wondering where I was or what I was doing, let me explain it simply....I made a mess of my AS levels and had to start again...find another college and another course that I was more suited to...which I did and am now happy and making progress.....that is why at the end of August I was unable to post delightful words on the summer as I was straightening this situation out....I'm more of a stay calm and fix it person.....

But the world around me was still moving and many a thing has happened...at my new college I met a lot of new people....some I like more than others...but the thing that intrigued me most is how I have started all over...a fresh start with the experience of mistakes that I know not to make again and a second chance...

Sometimes we're faced with bearings that are unknown to us...the right path may be the one beside the one your walking on...how are we to know that the path we have set upon is right?....the world is full of endless possibility and the decisions we make open doors for us and close some too...yet I continue on in this world knowing He has set a path for me....how I'm going to reach it I don't know but I have faith...

In other news, I have developed an addiction to coffee...now many of you will relate to this but it isn't just because I like the taste but more to do with....READ THE FOLLOWING SLOWLY AND IMAGINE ---> the idea of a high flying marketing executive walking into an office wearing a red jacket, wind blowing through her hair (or hijab in my case), holding a cup of coffee, the keys to a shiny car in her hand, Coco Chanel's 2.55 quilted bag on her arm, chatting away on her business phone to someone in Japan......do you see how it fits in???

You may have noticed that I mentioned a marketing executive...my career of the month and like all careers the more you read about it the more you see yourself there...Marketing is a unit of the course I chose to do and I enjoy it...partly because it involves creativity (creativity and me go way back) but also because its interesting to me how people's perception is influenced....

Over the years my choice of careers has been wide ranging from actress to artist, fashion designer to scientist, chef to accountant...currently its a strong tug of war between an accountant and a marketing executive...in the midst of all of this I have been contemplating which university to go to....and I must say it is a rather difficult choice to make...not only because I have to consider whether to stay closer to home or to go somewhere further away but also which course to do...it was narrowed down by choosing to do the Finance Career Academy course at college which meant I will inevitably do something relating to business and finance...and yet I still am unable to choose....if there's someone with wise words of wisdom out there...err I kinda need ya...sort of now...hello?

Also, I am thinking of getting back to my other love...photography...I neglected you for long but the promise of return is on the horizon.......

Hopefully I'll be posting again soon and for those of you who read my blog this will be a summary of the past few months...